That's Life

Things don't always turn out like you planned. In fact, I would say 99 percent of my life hasn't turned out like I originally planned. I got a call at 9 o'clock this morning that I most definitely wasn't anticipating. Coty called to tell me his sister was finally into hiring me and that she wanted to talk to me ASAP. I woke up, ate and rushed to Chris' house to close up shop then headed DIRECTLY to the office.

She ends up talking to me for a few hours. It was a gradual thing. She explained everything in a very sidetracked manner. It was hard to keep up with her thought patterns, but I guess I did a good job because she hired me. I'm basically on probabation for a couple of months until I get everything down pat. She just wants to make sure that I am smart enough to stay and actually WANT to stay. Of course I want to stay! This could mean a million wonderful things for Jenni!

I now have a really good, clerical, decent paying job. Hooray! I'll be able to afford getting the fuck out of this god forsaken house and getting on with my life that should be together already.

You know, after every time I watch Black Snake Moan I get into a duck/water analogy and forgive past bullshit immediately. I don't know why I have the ability to overlook really fucked up things in people. I just know that it's a horrible thing that I wish I would grow out of.

I still have the urge to rub "Rob's" face into his own shit. Part of me wants a friendship. Part of me wants a relationship. And the other larger chunk of me wants to make him CRAWL ON HIS FUCKING KNEES, CRY FOR FORGIVENESS AND WORSHIP ME. I think I'll make it happen. I know I have the ability. I'll just need to take it slowly.

I read a rule book that suggested I look ridiculous, be happy without him and flirt flirt flirt. That's not too hard. I'll start off first with the looking good part. I need to stop the smoking and start the running. Spend $$ and time on my hair, skin and nails. And wardrobe? OH! That will be the funnest part of all! SHOPPING! I think I eventually wanna go platinum blond. Need to lose weight first though. 15 lbs is doable.

Alright, I'm gg outside. I could sit here and revel, but I'm actually getting interaction.